Brownies trip to Brunei. Picture taken at a mosque in Brunei. 15 June 2008.

13th and 14th of August were the longest days of my life....

My gynae had asked me to come to KKH for an induce labour. My mom, my uncle and Zul had accompany me to KK at 5 am in the morning.

I felt more anxiety than scared... After settling in one of the labour room, the nurse start strapping my stomach with 2 strap.. (one to monitor my baby heart beat another to se my contraction level) then, the in-house doctor inserted a prostine pill up my... Soon, contraction came... but still my cervix would not open... so 1st prostine no baby yet...

Had to went up the ward and came down again at about 10pm for the 2nd prostine... more contractions but still my cervix not opening... had to take injection on my thigh to reduce the contraction so the baby would not be stress in my womb...

14th Aug... 3rd prostine at 2pm but still not opening... by now I;m already sick of the straps,,, my body aching.. I'm so lucky to hve my patience husband by my side all that time.. how can I not love him more....

At night the doctor came and ask whether I would take the 4th prostine or have a C-sec instead... I panic... Called my mom... Only god knoe what my mom went thru during all the time I'm in the labour ward... her worries for her 1st child... We decided to take the 4th one in the morning... Cant sleep the whole night... Stress...

In the morning, the 4th prostine... my mom went to get traditional help... She even quit her job cos she jus cant think straight... At 1st the in-house doctor check.. still not opened... but then my gynae checked .. AT LAST... open 1more cm... She burst my water bag... at 12pm and put me on drip... WOUW... the contraction!! Ask for epidural.. Too tired to endure any more pain...

At 1803, 15th August 2006 (Monday), MOhammed Erfan was born.. He's so red... weighing 2.6kg... I'm so relief that everything went well... but the nurse said that Erfan had to be taken to Special Care cos he had phlem in his lungs... And he's taken away from me....

Didnt get to see him till the next day... he's so small... cant believe he's mine...

I know that during my stay in the hospital, there's lots of worried loved ones... my mom, my hubby, my siblings, my in-laws, my good friends... How can I thank all of them for being there when I needed them most... How can I ever repay them...

THANK YOU.... My life would never be this perfect without them....

Mummy Muli...

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http://littlemulizul.blogspot.com

Hello People Out There...

Happy Lunar New Year... to my Chinese friends..... 09022005

Happy New Year too to my Muslim friends...10022005.. 1st Muharram...

Happy Holidays!!!

muli

EEEeekk...!!! What's that smell?!!..


Oh, it's just my stale blog... heheehehee...

Well.. I often forgot to update my blog... Well, now with my hubby (heheehee...) and all....

It's been 10 weeks since we are married.. and soon another will join into the family..

Little zul and muli....

Everything is fine for now... I'm hoping it'll stay that way the rest 7 mths...

I find myself really lucky.. Some tried really a long time before getting one...

But I have to take care of myself so that junior will stay healthy and happy in it's little space...

Thank you for always a look out for my blog... will try to update more often...

Love you all...

Muli

9 more days to the BIG day!!

More headaches... More stress.. More work.. More responsibilities...

BUt after that.... heehehheee... more loving... more caring.. more loving again.. heheehhhee....

TO EVERYONE OUT THERE READING MY BLOG , PLEASE PRAY THAT MY WEDDING DAY WILL GO AS SMOOTH AS POSSIBLE...
INSYAALLAH...

Lots of Love
Muli

It's been such a long break for me from blog.. Too many things on my mind...

Ramadan is here.. but soon it will be gone.. What have i done during this auspicious month... Will my fasting be blessed by Him.. Noone knows...

It's another 7 more days til Shawal.. And Ramadan will leave us.. I think it's sad cos for me personally, I'm more religiously incline during Ramadan.. Hopely He will give me guidance thru out my life, Not only during Ramadan... Amin..

N it's another 21 days til my wedding.. Am I totally prepared?.. Who is?.. All i can hope for is the best.. Is it too late to question whether he is the right one?.. Of course Not.. But i already know the answer.. there's this saying that I will always remember;

Don't marry someone you can live with... Marry someone you can't live without....

I always have these feeling when i don't meet Zul often... that he can live without me.. he has his own life.. he's perfectly fine without me.. N here I am feeling *shit* becos he just don't feel like going out to meet me..

But I'll be perfectly fine when he's around.. Am i being selfish? Am i being unreasonable? Am i being paranoid? Am i going insane?...YES..

Do i have to compete with his family members to get his affection n attention.. DAMN IT!!! He's making me feel lousy!!!!

I know he loves me... but is that enough for me... I want so much more... I WANT him all for myself... NO SHARING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***I'M GOING CRAZY***

Meeting for just 5 or 6 days for these 2 months is NOT enough for me... Where is my boyfriend? Where is my fiancee? OR Who ever he is?...................

****GILA**** ****GILER**** ****GILO**** ****SIAO****

HEeeehhheeee!!

Who ever is reading these please don't get alarmed... These feelings will pass... (It better be soon)....

THE PARaN0iD oNe
Mad (as in 'crazy' N 'angry') Muly